My intention in writing this is not to gripe, but rather to vent. This blog has become sort of therapeutic and since it doesn't give me unwanted advice and doesn't charge by the hour, I intend to use it to it's fullest. The past week has been such a whirlwind. I tried in each situation I was faced with to do what I thought was best for everyone involved. I knew that taking on the task of helping out a family in need would take it's toll on my family and I tried ever so hard to take that into consideration and make sure that every ones needs were met. Well, at least everyone but my own. I did everything I could to make sure that T was cared for to the best of my ability. I made a point to love on him every chance I got. I knew this would effect L so I was cautious about her needs too. I made a point to have time just with her and to praise her for sharing her toys and house and Mommy with T. I made sure to do special things with just her. I tried to do all I could for J and C to make sure things went smoothly for them. The last thing they needed to worry about was whether they had clean clothes or someone to care for their son. I knew that having T here and the extra load would take a toll on G and tried so hard to make up for that. I made a point to attempt to make our anniversary (which we really never celebrate) special this year. I even found someone to keep Leah overnight, which isn't easy for me to do. I devoted the entire time to him and being with him. I tried my hardest to make things creative and romantic (something I'm not really good at). I made sure that when we took M and LQ to Galveston that we spent the day together, as a family, just the 3 of us. I made sure to keep all of my duties as a mother, wife, woman, sister and employee up to date. I kept up with the laundry, the dishes, the bills, the cleaning and still even cooked several meals at home, all of which is a task during a normal week. I still made it to work. I still did the shopping and running errands. I even mowed, fertilized and ant poisoned the yard, even though it's not my responsibility. I made sure that when I had a free second that I spent it with G. I didn't complain about him working late or on the weekends because I knew things were difficult and different during the day. I really thought maybe I could be Super Woman and get it all done with minimal effect on everyone. Boy was I wrong. In return I got a broken toe, a ticked off husband, a cranky daughter, a sinus infection (same one I've had for the past 3 weeks, but haven't had the time/funds to deal with), money issues and now a bladder infection. So much for meeting everyone's needs!
Now it's time for that unwanted advice. Girls, am I the only one that feels like this? What do you do? Put your needs first and let everyone else fend for themselves? I am sure that there is a balance and I know that I probably took on too much, but I really didn't see that it would turn out this way.
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